Saturday, October 23, 2010

Feeling a little lost...

I know I've said it in nearly every blog post, but I need some serious time management lessons. Everyday I feel like I'm running around like a chicken with it's head cut off. This week has been a rough one for me. I've been fighting a cold, dealing with midterms at school, and of course trying to manage being a mommy to two young kiddos (who have also been sick) with out ripping my hair out. I think that I am setting my standards too high each day and getting mighty discouraged when I don't finish every task I've put on my list. Today I tried something a little bit different and it seemed to work for me. I just started doing. No to do list, nothing to check off as "done" (normally I'm a total list kinda girl.) I still came no where near getting as much done as I would have put on my list but I accomplished more than usual. It was SO amazing to feel productive!
I've had a lot on my mind lately regarding my personal life, and I know it's been taking a toll on my weight loss. I've always been so proud to say that I have tremendous will power when it comes to avoiding emotional eating, but these past few weeks I have lost it. I'm picking up crappy food left and right and poppin' it right in my mouth! The most horrible part is, I think about what I'm doing but still do it! I don't want to go into the dirty details, but I know exactly why I'm feeling down. I really hate the spot I'm in right now and I wish with every fiber of my being I knew how to fix it. When did life become so complicated? When did I become a person that couldn't say how I was feeling? How did I become so comfortably numb?

1 comment:

  1. My love! You are doing fabulous... You are kicking so much butt! I wish I could be anything like you. It sounds like we need to have a talk though. I love you! Keep going strong, after finals are over, things should calm down :)